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[lhexa]

Had a miniature seizure last night... at least, I don't have any other way of describing it. Tension in my body was building all last night until it got to the point where I couldn't move or speak without an effort. I certainly couldn't concentrate on anything. Considering that I was panicking at the time, though, and that I thought my muscles would just progressively lock up, I really was vulnerable to this. Now that I know that I can survive such a panic it'll be easier to handle.

I've got to take things slowly. Trying all at once to confront every problem, or even trying to put all my focus on relaxing, will just overwhelm me. I still don't feel like I'll have trouble keeping away from apathy, though. I'm already itching to resume studies.

Getting too much advice makes me tense. I ought to keep this in mind when giving advice to others.

I'm feeling much better today. Watched a couple of movies, read some Emerson and Cavell, and worked on getting in touch with a psychiatrist who can change this anxiety-causing prescription.

Comments

[broken-bokken.livejournal.com]

Fo shiz, dawg, don't sweat! 4:20 dat shiznat, lay back in yo' pad and chill fo' a bit.

[lhexa.livejournal.com]

And experience the joys of apnea? I'm not good at relaxing.

[raki.livejournal.com]

That sounds like a panic attack. There are various ways of dealing with them, but speak to someone who knows more than I do.

[lhexa.livejournal.com]

It was a dystonic reaction to the medicine, which might qualify it as an extra-fierce panic attack. I know what it feels like, building up. So, distracting myself will help if it starts once more. Massages also help.