No context for you.

[lhexa]

So, in an unusual moment of clarity this evening I realized that an excessive fear that had lingered for more than two years had now become surmountable. I nervously checked a final, unread email from an old friend, and found it astonishingly toothless, astonishing because I had long ago become accustomed to her emails leaving me feeling lacerated. In retrospect, it seems that the messages were only painful when she was making a concerted effort to communicate with me.

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[hebinekohime]

I don't need context; I'm really glad that you got some closure here. *hugs*

There's a calm I feel when I see someone who used to intimidate me hurting. It's a mixture of being able to feel empathy for them again and relief at having control over my own self-image back.